Lent 2

If faith is about becoming the me God created me to be
If faith is about becoming more Wendy
then Lent is ….

Lent was traditionally a time of preparation for baptism.
A time or preparation for eternal life something so much better than now
So I am beginning to see lent as a process through which I need to go.
A process that at the end of it I am one step further forward,
One step “better” than I am now
One unit of measure of Faith more like the Wendy God created me to be

How am I doing that … not sure
Though there is some reassessing of my roles in life
Some reassessing of my values.
I’d like to say reassessing of my own innate worth as a sacred child of the creator but a quick glance in that general direction is all that I can manage at the moment.

I have given nothing up for lent… I have given up too much in the past year
I have taken nothing very specific up for lent … I have taken too much to heart in the past year.

I am trying (on occasion) to just be before God.
Face down is all I can mange there is no strength in me, anger, arrogance, fear, hatred, loathing but no strength.

There is breath
There is life
And buried deep down there is hope

Hope of being able to be before God more
Of being able to love Him a bit
Of being able to let him love me (just a tinsy winsy bit)
Of being able to see myslef as a sacred child of God most high